Merry Christmas+Heart Update

So many of you are probably wondering about the current state of my heart. I do have a diagnosis. Right now I am on a treatment plan that is currently trial and error. I am taking Lopressor (Metroprolol Tartrate) to treat the symptoms. There is, unfortunately, no cure for the condition that I suffer. It is usually treated, symptomatically speaking, with surgery, meds or both. It is usually a condition that you're born with and it lies dormant until teen years or adulthood. The medication is helping, but it's not fully stopping the symptoms or pain which I still have on occasion. Truthfully, I don't like this medication. It makes me tired and I have bad memories of meds that make me tired. Unfortunately I'm stuck taking it because if I don't take anything, as I'm told, my condition will worsen and I could die. And if I stop taking this medication suddenly, going by what I've looked up on it, I could die from a heart attack, heart failure, renal failure and the list goes on. Joy. The existing side effects, beside being tired, are (copy pasting): Constipation; diarrhea; dizziness; dry mouth or eyes; gas; headache; heartburn; lightheadedness; mild drowsiness; muscle aches; nausea; pain, redness, or swelling at the injection site; stomach pain; trouble sleeping; unusual tiredness or weakness; vomiting.

I usually don't fall asleep until 4 am now. I'm trying to adjust that, but being bipolar as well makes it difficult. My doctor is planning to increase the dosage, and given what I've looked up, that means I will stop taking it in pill form and start injecting it. Nice. I fucking hate needles and my sis is also terrified of them.